hello! my name is bea! this isn’t really anonymous because imma tell you my tiktok soon. so, there’s a lot to start from. but let’s start from the very beginning. so when i was 7 my doctor started breaking the news to me that i am getting fat. i was like 90 pounds in 2nd grade. i got sad but i didn’t care. 3rd grade was fine. fourth was the worst so far. my friend moved away in second and her name was sania. i told her bye and i missed her. in 4th grade somebody new came to our class! i got so excited! guess who it was! it was sania! i got SO excited! we talked and talked, but i did most of the taking... oh well. month later a bunch of shit that i cant remeber happens. i start feeling like i didn’t matter. lots of people bullied me. why? my weight. they kept on paying me to eat food, i didn’t know why but they filmed me and they laughed. i never knew they were doing that. sania turned against me REAL quick. in math i passed a note to her saying “i should just kill myself..” and the teacher wanted the note. so i gave it to her. she told the guidance counselor. she told me to go to the doctor. my doctor asked me questions. i had to answer that i was fine. no, i wasn’t. i felt like i wasn’t needed. i didn’t have a purpose. i still feel like that. no, nobody knows. it’s fine. i have therapy sessions with my stuffed animals since i can’t get real help. i started cutting in 4th grade. i still cut. if you wanna hype my tiktok it’s wishingwallows ! thank you for reading! that’s only have the story. here’s some extra tho. (sania had a friend group. aidan, katelyn, richelly, and i think that’s it. but they all bullied me everyday and called me a hippo. i always get bullied for my weight so i’m trying not to eat. it’s hard but i’ll be fine. i’ve been feeling sick recently though. not enough energy. i don’t know why, but that’s it.)
-bea aka hippo