lol even now i feel like a total pussy for being on here,, but ig i need it in a way. i always keep to myself unless it gets so bad i usually crack to my s/o. i have nobody else but them, and u know i like it that way.. but i just get so lonely sometimes. i dont know what to do. i know they go thru a lot as well, n so i wouldnt want to add on to that.. ykno ? ig my problems are a bunch of things. im never happy,, and always empty. always always. i only really feel happy when on the phone with my s/o. its not like i rely on them for happiness, i dont at all. but, besides that, yea im jus.. empty. i dont eat. i dont feel happy. also, about eating.. i feel like nobody takes me seriously on my ed. i went to the hospital for it, and i was dying. at the time, nobody cared and i keep thinking what if i.. did die ?? would they have cared then?? nobody cared to ask how i was, or anything. well, i only had one friend at the time and not even SHE bothered. it hurt. and more stuff keeps coming up bt the second. i keep remembering things about people from my family hurting me. such as my cousins. i had unconsentual sex with my cousin for a few years, and my other cousin would do things with my feet. my dad used to watch me shower, and touch my ass n shit. i really dont remember anything else, and i dont want to. im just so scared about everything. nobody takes me seriously anymore nobody checks up on me it feels like. maybe im doing it for the attention ??? but why wwould i do thatjsjskdjdbfb idk anymore. i feel bad for wven writing on here, but ik im gonna be right back here. theres just too much going on and i have no control over it all