i don’t know who i am. the truth is that i don’t really feel like a girl anymore. i hate she/her pronouns so much it feels like someone stabs me in the heart when they call me a girl. i hate my chest and everything that makes me feminine. i wanna be a boy. i wanna be confident and strong and manly and a real man and i hate myself and i hate my body and i hate it and i can’t do this anymore but still i’m not sure about anything and i hate that i have to be a boy or a girl i just want to be myself and idhegwbgshevwhdbgeb i just broke my streak of 5 months being clean. i can’t do this anymore. i’m sorry.
i just want a haircut tbh. that’s all i want.
hey, you dont know me, i dont know you, but i wanna tell you something. dont ever give up. everything will get better. i know thats some cheesy stupid phrase youve probably heard a bajillion times, but its true. things do get better. i know things are so confusing and painful right now, they probably have been for a very long time, but there will always be an end to suffering. theres going to be a day where you have the haircut of your dreams, a body you love and feel confident in, and people around you who will love and support you no matter what. i know i do. i love you. i care about you. and so do so many other people who youve never met before. youre absolutly strong. youve made it this far. you had a streak of 5 FREAKING months! thats incredible! you are amazing, and powerful! im literally so proud of you. there will never be anyone like you. please, keep pushing foward, so one day when you look back on your present self, youll think, "wow...im so glad i didnt give up....now i can enjoy my favorite snack!"