before i was born my parents always had problems, im not in the know of everything yet, my mom always told me she'll tell me everything when i'm older. all i know is that my dad cheated on my mom, and even though my mom rants about it and we sweep it under the rug, i can tell my dad put her through hell. currently, my mental health is pretty good i'm not depressed anymore, there are some problems here and there like my sleep schedule and stuff but im mainly writing this to get everything off my chest. my parents have been separated since i was 5, and we've always struggled with money, luckily i was blessed enough to live in a very nice house, but that house is what made us struggle with money. a little over a year ago i moved from my house to a small apartment, and don't get me wrong im so grateful i even had a home after being in fear me my mom and my brother were going to have to live on the streets. it's just hard being in a place that you can't consider home. a little after i moved, my dad revealed to me i had a sister, i had already known this but i didn't tell anyone. i love her so much and she is the sweetest thing ever, but her mom is the woman my dad cheated on my mom with which already caused problems. but i can't help but feel jealous of her, her parents are together and in love, she has so much stuff and i envy her because when i was her age i didn't get to live like that. i got diagnosed with depression less than a year ago, and i overcame it during quarantine. it made me feel so much stronger and i've been realizing my capabilities and power i have to determine my future. the only thing that tears me apart is myself, my mindset, im such a terrible person, i have a huge ego and no longer have that much sympathy for others, but im working on that. right now ig im just rambling on lol but my parents got out of their debt today which made me feel really good. but im just writing all of this to get everything off my chest ig :)
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