so I have always struggled with self esteem issues but recently they have gotten worse. I’m almost 13 and have had self esteem issues since i was 8. all my friends have always been really skinny and never my size and they would say “your not THAT fat” or “just eat less!” Which caused me to have an eating disorder my mum says “ it’s puppy fat” maybe try exercising“ and I’ve never met somebody that has made me feel better about myself. I had a friend let’s call her Kai she was my best friend from when i was 5 to when I was 11 we would talk online everyday but she started acting weird so I said “ I dont wanna be friends anymore” she replied with “ fine I’ll go kill myself then” so I texted her for hours telling her to stop and I would stay friends with her ( I was 9 she was 11) so for 3 more years I was stuck in this relationship, she forced me to date her multiple times and if I broke up with her she would throw tantrums and would Say “ I’m going to kill myself and it’s your fault” “ you really hate me don’t you” “you know what do us a favour and kill yourself” I hated it but all I wanted was for her to be happy and I read the old messages sometimes and she had sent multiple messages since I stopped talking to her and they said stuff like “ I still wear the smile you gave me” not the smile I helped her find the smile I GAVE her. I’ll probably post more on here but this is my story about “kai”
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