A lot has happened since 6th grade I’m in 9th grade now but 6th grade is where it all started I started losing energy I grew up in a household where you can’t be sad unless you don’t have food or a roof so I can never talk to my family about this they just tell me to get over it or it’ll pass or get mad at me I started having feelings for this boy and they haven’t stopped and I hate it ik he doesn’t like me he only likes white blonde girls no hate to them I’m just judging the guy and my friends back then hated me I never felt like I belonged and then I dropped one of them and they made a gc to talk crap about me but I made new friends but they were toxic too i was like they’re token poc therapist friend in 7th grade my dad left on Christmas a little before that my van extended family visited and they didn’t really help my mental health either They always body shamed me and never gave me privacy it really sucks Ed and then I dropped my toxic friends because I felt like crap everything was falling apart but then I made new friends again oh and I also had a “friend group” but I was also just not important they made a gc without me inform of me and they hanged out without me and just ignored me unless I offered to take them to the movies or the mall and got them stuff so in the summer I broke my ankle in 3 places and I couldn’t play volleyball for the next 6 months so I missed tryouts and now everyone has a team and I just train at home but anyway 8th grade started and it was ok I was still struggling but I kinda kept my mind off of it until January I came back and nobody really talked to me and I lost a lot of friends but I never really let it show the thing is I never let it show because I have no one to actually talk to but anyways I lost a lot of friends some people thought I’ll of me or whatever and it really sucked those 2 months or so of school we had left were hell but then I made a new friend again and it was a little bit better and the. We just started fting withe other people and stuff but that’s it a thing anymore and I made another for e but he’s not really there anymore and I can never open up to anyone cause I always have to be thier full time therapist but I just get a lol same or mood and now I’m drifting with my only friend and she’s kinda changing too it just sucks I can never ever open up at all cause the moment I can’t attend to their wounds I’m not acting like myself and I never get invited to anything so I’m just here alone
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