diagnose but i think i might be depressed. i cry myself to sleep every night. i told my mom. and she’s going to get me a therapist. but the thing is i just can’t keep it in any longer. i need to talk to a friend. but i don’t want to be a burden. i don’t want my friend to feel like i do when they tell me something bc i am a VERY big over thinker. i want to die and i think about it all the time. i don’t want to kill myself but i don’t want to live anymore. its a different type of pain when you don't want to tell anyone whats going on because you don't want them to feel bad for you.i’ve been trying so hard for the past 2 months now but i just don’t see the point in living anymore. i just want to die. i want to leave forever. there’s nothing here. no one would care. it’s just i’m just tired, exhausted even. and i told my mom a couple of nights ago and i feel worse bc now she probably thinks she messed up and i don’t want her to feel bad. i’ve cried every single night since july 12. that’s why i stay up so late, the later i stay up the worse i feel. i don’t want it to be like this anymore. there’s not point. i am not going to kill myself but if there was a car in the middle of the street coming at me i probably wouldn’t move. i just lost motivation ig.