so at the beginning of quarantine i was doing alright i was active but after a while i stopped. i sat and did nothing all day i stayed up late so i could cry alone so no one would notice and i still do that but i dont have a reason to cry and now im ✨numb✨. i also want to change myself like i want better fashion i want new friends bc i have no one to talk to even my best friend i dont tell things bc i feel like im just complaining but my other friend says its healthy i only really talk to her. i also am realizing religion is stupid but my parents are religious and wouldnt let me stop going bc i dont have faith anymore. oooo another thing that makes me annoyed w my parents is that they both are low key racist, homophobic, and transphobic ( my dad saidthe t slur) oh and i am realized i may be bi�� its fun being confused.