I've been crying for three nights straight over what my friend had said.
My friend since kindergarten told my other friend while we were ALL face timing that it wasnt funny and said she had to 'deal with my shit for years' after they made a suicidal joke. I dont know if It was supposed to purposely be mean but..I feel guilty..and angry.
I need to talk to new people. I feel like if I try and fit in and talk with everyone else they will think I'm annoying. I dont need anyone else breaking because of me.
I think there is some things you need to think about before making any decisions is this out of character of your friend or do you think that they may just be toxic if it is out of character maybe talk to them about how this has upset you and then if you want work on rebuilding that trust however if this is not wildly out of character of your friend you could distance yourself from them and therefore cutting out the toxicness out of your life.
The other comments are just jumping straight to that they are a toxic friend which could very much be it (you know yourself) but as you said this is your very long time friend so they may have just been very very very obviously crossing the line
I know I just went on a big rant there but please take care of yourself and have a great day hope all goes well with what you do. ❤️