I was 12 when i learned about SA, i was scrolling through videos about SA on tiktok when i recovered a memory that i didint even know i had.
I always wake up at 4 or 5 in the morning to get ready for school. And one day i woke up with my dad kissing me.. it wasnt even a normal forehead kiss that you would give to your daughter after she had just woken up, the kiss was so disgusting, i think you know what kiss im talking about. And when i woke up, my dad just got up and ran away from my room. I got up too and i was pretty confused but i just shrugged the whole thing off. When i went to the kitchen to eat breakfast, my mom was smirking at me. I was so fucking confused. And mind you, at that time i was only around 9 or 10. Was that sa or am i being over dramatic??
And thats not even worse compared to this, when i was 6 (or 7 i cant really remember) my dad FUCKING PINNED ME DOWN TO THE BED TO FKING KISS ME. HIS GRIP WAS SO STRONG THAT WHEN I STRUGGLED TO GET OUT MY NECK FUCKING CRACKED. That neck crack was SO PAINFUL. I was only six dude. And my whole familly just watched me cry so loud bcs i was in pain. My two sisters were confused too.
Im 13 rn and my dad dosent do that to me anymore. He quit smoking/drinking and hes overly religeous right now
I wouldnt really call it self improvement because he turned narsicistic but things are better now :) .
But i really hate it when something reminds me of these memories.