hey... so... ive never told anyone, but my ex best friend was HELLA toxic.
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I was the new kid, You see, sitting on my own, and she walked right up to me, and said “Wanna be friends?” she seemed nice, at first, she smiled a lot and had a pink stationary. But how ”nice“ and “sweet” she looked, didn’t matter. Not when she did such horrible things.
Her only other friend immediately opened up to me about her, and told me she was rude, and stuck up. She had little arguments with me aaaall the time, I would say something she didn’t like, and she would storm away and say “were not friends anymore“ and rip up our photos up in front of me. Then it was all fine again the next day. It’s important to know I was also struggling with harm at the time, and she made me feel even more worthless.
her other friend, A, was the only one I could really trust at the time. The other girls at school were all toxic too, there was the “popular girl” that everyone actually hated, and talked bad about her behind her back. So, I eventually told A about my harm. She was there for me, and asked me why I did it. I didn’t know. She warned me about harm addiction. I didn’t know that was a thing before.
obviously, my toxic “best friend” was there. She thought it was like.... some kind of cool personality trait, depression, and started drawing lines on her hand with a ruler, to look like me. and keep in mind, we were 13. Not little kids. She even got out scissors at her house, and started fake harming, and asked if i “wanted to join”. I dont know why I didn’t see the red flags at the time... I just.. thought I needed her, because she was my only friend, other than A.
I want to tell someone about her, but I know that would mean having to explain I harmed Back then. I’m recovered now... but I don’t want to alarm anyone. I’ve told people about the little arguments we had, but not the real reason why she’s so toxic. I just needed someone to vent to.
Thank you,
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i’m so sorry you had to go through that. i’m so glad you got out of that situation!
Wow... I’m so glad your not friends with her anymore! I’m so sorry you had to go through this she sounds awful...