I don't know if anyone is reading this or not but if you happen to be reading this then sorry about my shitty grammar (also I'm be talking about sexual organs or something so if that kind of stuff triggers you then don't read this lmao)
I know for a fact basically all of my family would disown me for being transgender. And I know for a fact that basically everyone in my small town with a population of like 11,000 people would not support me for being trans. I just want someone to talk to about this, I want to talk to someone who actually understands. I'm afraid to open up to my friends about my severe gender dysphoria because I feel like they will think I'm weird or that I'm just faking it. The reason a lot of people actually do think that way is because of transtrenders.
Transtrenders are so harmful to the actual trans community it's insane. But they don't give two fucks. They just want to be a part of the community even though they have no idea what it is like to actually be transgender. They don't know what it's like to want to kill yourself because of the body that you are currently in. Being in the wrong body fucking sucks so much. I wish I was a cis male. I would kill somebody to be a cis male (I'm not a psychopath lmao, I'm just saying that I would basically do anything to be a cisgender male.)
I have the wrong body. I cry my eyes out every single time I have to see myself naked. I know someone have a vagina and boobies doesn't seem like a thing that someone should be balling there eyes out over. (honestly I don't get it either) But my gender dysphoria has gotten so bad that I probably won't be able to live another year or two as a girl.
my friend also outed me to her mom but I still love this friend more than anyone ever and I would still die for this friend 😻
hi! i love your name!
anyway, im really sorry your community won't accept you, that's awful. i don't know much on the subject, but i do know that you're valid, and you're feelings are very valid. i'm sorry your friend outed you, but that's good that they accept you. i really hope you can push yourself to get through these years as a girl. i'm proud of you for getting this far.
also, if you're a reader, i recommend the book Lily and Dunkin. it might give you hope.
love,
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