I’m an hour and a half clean at the moment. I’ve hurt myself since i was 9. I sat in the shower contemplating if i even had the strength to continue. I’ve never cut so deep before. I can’t deal with this anymore. Please, oh gods please help me. I dont think i can go on anymore. it hurts so bad. everything hurts. it hurts worse then the cuts on my body. it stings worse than broken bones. i can barely get myself out of bed anymore. i can’t tell anyone i know how i feel anymore. my irrational fear of mental hospitals has taken over. i wish i could explain how terribly i feel, but i can’t. please save me.