I did it the first time because of an anxiety attack. i remember that night perfectly because i had gotten into a huge fight with a toxic frien, and there was a big science exam the next day. I was panicking and paralized from the stress, crying so hard my stomache hurt and my head felt like i was gonna explode. i grabbed the nearest object and, "lucky" for me it was an exacto knife i had used for an art project. without even thinking i slit my wrists. not deep enough to kill me, but it was deep enough to leave permanent scars. that was 7 months ago, and still today im addicted to it. i got close to 1 month once, but fucked it up. i was almost 1 week clean, but i got scared and did it again. when it started getting hot i moved on the he top or my arms instead of my wrists to wear short sleeves. now that its summer ive been cutting my hips. i feel tired all the time and i think my depression is coming back. i dont want it to it made my life miserable. i wanna kill myself again, but I cant because we have no pills in the house besides ibuprofen. and you cant really od on that. i want help but knowing my parents, theyd think im faking it. thank you for listening❤