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recently i've been cutting myself, and I only do it when I feel extremely low and just want to feel something. It leaves a mark so I'm constantly reminded of what a fuck up I am. but i cant help but feel weird, because i'm too young for this, and if i do decide to stick around and not take my life, i'll regret wasting and ruining my childhood on this. But i cut myself anyway.
(tw’s) !! I used to do that a lot when I was younger. Going through abuse and trauma, all I could think of was cutting myself when I fucked up because it left a mark and I could feel like I punished myself for just existing like that. But over time, I learned that such a part in life will fade away! Shit might be super duper rough right now, but I can promise you it gets better. Even if it’s just a little bit at a time. There’s tons of other coping methods that’ll help you instead of self harming. I eventually went to punching pillows, but that didn’t help much either. At some point, I started making paper cranes! I can’t tell you how much that helped! I wrote how I was feeling in the paper, made the crane, and then I put it away and let the issue go. I always feel lighter after doing so. If you find a healthier coping method like that, I’m sure your life will improve. But remember this, you are worth so much. You have a lot of self worth. And lemme know if you’d like to talk! I’m sorry if I didn‘t offer much help.