I had this online friend that I was in love with, knew her for about 4 years. We dated multiple times but it never seemed to work. The last time we were together things were different, she started admitting to things that I never knew and I was beginning to become uncomfortable whenever she was online. She admitted to sexualizing me in her mind and wanting to do things to me if we ever met in person, even though she knew about my extreme fear of having sex. At the time I felt like I had to do what she told me to do or say, it was awful and I hated it so much. She’d make me call her names and ask me to moan for her (I faked them but I never told her that), and she’d call me degrading names because she was into that, but it scared me. I feel like it’s my fault for letting her get away with using me for her pleasure, I wish I wasn’t so afraid of standing up for myself back then. I broke up with her and I’ve never spoken to her since. I pray that she isn’t still obsessed with me, because it frightened me.
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